I knew it would come...it happens every time...that moment of utter despair that everything in your life has changed and you wonder if it will ever feel like home. I had almost believed that I wouldn't have to go through it this time, but I think deep down I knew better. It always comes in that moment when I am completely alone and realize I don't know what to do with myself, because I don't have a normal. Then, the tears come and I long for places and people of familiarity.
So...it happened tonight. And, as painful as it felt, I had an epiphany. This meant the process had begun. I am grieving the last remnants of my past life to make room for the new one.
God has been busy this past year, doing a remodeling job on me, to prepare me for such a time as this. So I will grieve when I need to over the life I've left behind, because I know the One I sacrificed it for is so worth it!!
"I'm waving goodbye to my pretty little life
Taking your hand and crossing that line
Daring to leave the old me
Shout it out loud, I'm not ashamed
Diving in now, and so not afraid
Hello to all that You see
And everything You made me
I'm daring to be!"
*Taken from the song "Daring to Be" by Natalie Grant
